I'm in and have to be for now.
Being in or out is a choice. No one HAS TO BE IN. Some might elect to, because it causes less pain than leaving right now. You are creating a false dilemma with your first statement. It simply is not true.
I figure I can do more to wake friends and family up on the inside than the outside and i didn't come to that decision without a great deal of pain.
Probably not. You are inside an insular group who tolerate very little free thought, and even less objection to anything that is dispensed from the 'Society'. The eventuality of your decision will likely be an inability to maintain the charade, being disfellowshipped, or disassociated. Those you attempted to influence will shun you, and pray for days that Jehovah will wash any of your negative comments out of their mind. In the end, you would have wasted precious years inside a lie.
I know it's not "the truth" but it isn't a bad life for me,and I still very much believe in God. The witnesses aren't right but neither are the Mormons, the catholics, etc and i have other family devoted to both those faiths.
Ok. But again, how can you live a lie and feel at peace with 'God' if you believe in him? SO you have identified THREE wrong religions - where is the right one? How does other peoples' devotion have anything to do with your life, your worship? Do three wrongs [or 10,000 wrongs] make a right?
I wrote a thread about panic attacks but they've stopped since i made a decision to stay rather than go or constantly dwell on going.
You have solved a short term problem by attaching yourself longterm to a lying religion? Don't get that.
My question is: for anyone still in, and loves God and the Bible, do you try to have conversations about those things at the door, rather than WT doctrine? This is really a question for christians who are still jehovahs witnesses. Has anyone/ does anyone do this to get around it? I enjoy talking about God and the Bible.
Sorry, I don't fit your category. Once I found the Jehovah's Witnesses to be a lie - I left. Once I found Christianity to be false - I left. Once I found religion in general to be false - I left. Once I found the god-concept to be superstition based on lies and culture rather than truth - I left. I enjoy talking about god and the Bible, just not from the same perspective you enjoy I suppose.
Peace in your journey. Mine took 8 years from finding out that JW's were wrong to now. I have never been happier, and it has exactly nothing to do with religion and everything to do with truth - only that truth is very painful along the way - but worth every spasm in the end.
Just remember this: If your current truth is not, and other truths you know of are not, it is very likely that the truth you adopt will not be truth also.
Just think of this: If you had been born into a muslim nation, you would perhaps now be struggling with leaving one particular muslim faction to believe the truth of another. It's all about culture. Truth really doesn't enter in to it if you allow yourself to think clearly. Thinking clearly takes time though - and you will not ever think clearly inside a cult. There were a few clear thinkers inside Jonestown too - but to a man they all drank the kool-aid.
Jeff